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October 11 iLikeAn online buddy invited me to join iLike. I usually just send those type of requests to the trash bin, but I am surprised to say I like. If you get an invite from Ama B, I want you to know it's just me invading your solitude. You can add the side bar to your MySpace, or Facebook page. It's compatible with iTunes and Windows Media. Check it out; www.iLike.com
October 07 Gas, Take Two
I ranted two weeks ago about the gas shortage in Georgia and what I perceived as price gauging- being charged $5.19 per gallon for premium grade. My karma comes quickly, so I guess I shouldn't have complained. Here's some more gas ranting. Not only do we still have a shortage, now the queues are longer because there is a $50.00 maximum. Here's the kicker we do not have premium grade gas. Oh, I've looked, spent two hours on the phone Saturday morning calling gas stations within twenty miles of my home. I've taken to shamelessly asking everyone that I overhear mention gas which grade of fuel their vehicle takes, what gas station did they queue at. How bad is it? Sad enough to drive around with a phone book. I've considered waiting for the owner of parked vehicles that I know only run on premium so I could interrogate the owner. I shamelessly sent out an S.O.S email at work, to which I received responses that went something like this: Will trade info for a $2.00 gas card (yes two), Will trade info for a vacation day, Will trade info for a bag of orange M & M's. I get in my truck and have technicolor delusions of the gas tank falling off in protest of having to run on Regular, or stalling out on a hill, at a traffic light, or not starting when I am running late for work. I don't know what the long term effects of running on Regular will be... is there truly a consequence? Thanks, this fiasco has given the Virgo in me one more thing to worry about. September 26 The New People Newspaper Online:For those of you who do not know, I am half Sierra Leonean. My heart strings are moored at Lumley Beach. Her shores call to me in my sleep, She is home in my waking and sleep states.
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I got off early today, at about noon, in enough time to witness the queue's at about six gas stations. What is going on? I don't understand the panic, come on people, we've been at this for over two weeks now. I refused to top off my tank. If gas cost more on Monday, I'll still have to pay the higher price come next Friday, regardless of the additional cost. Seriously, my tank doesn't know the difference between last Friday's gas and next Friday's gas. Okay, my wallet will know the difference, but I've got to have gas, regardless of the cost. Public transportation doesn't come out my way, and when my pager goes off, I've got to go wherever. Can we take a moment to rationally think our hoarding over please!
P.S., I am in Georgia. September 25 $5.19
Gas Prices
Every once in a while I look up gas prices in California to keep me from complaining about what I dish out for gas. My truck takes premium so I am used to paying more than the average person. I took the weekly cost into account when buying Bee four years ago, and didn't complain about $4.50 per gallon. I recently paid $5.19 a gallon and was limited to fourteen gallons. I am seriously considering converting my vehicle to bio fuel...I don't think I will ever pay $3.50 a gallon again what with the state of our economy. September 10 The Mojave Experiment
I usually veg out in my bedroom, laptop on hand and I must confess the television on as company. Ninety eight percent of the time I am not watching it, but a Vista commercial caught my attention. I'll have to catch it again to consciously know what drew my concentration from work to the television screen. I'll be the first to tell you that I am a tv snob. Go easy, it was a discouraged pass time in my parent's home. Vista is the operating system on my laptop, I have XP on my PC. The difference is vast, like the convenience of a 7pm self checkout at your neighborhood grocers on a payday. In and out, get what you need minus crying babies, toddlers falling out, and the long wait. Check out the posted web site, and let me know what you think. September 09 Talking about Moving DayCreated an Event, I'll add pix as they are taken. Quote Moving Day Family Gatherings
August 14 Second hand discourseThis is from a second hand acquaintance, a colleague of a friend who moved on to what he thought were greener pastures.
Yesterday I started my new job as an Editor of the Gamhuria Gazette, the oldest English language newspaper in Egypt. Yesterday I quit my new job at the oldest and worst English language newspaper in Egypt.I was editing a piece on fashion. Egyptian youth these days are, apparently, wearing low-rider jeans and tight fitting clothes. They claim that this is a personal expression of freedom. Their parents are terrified. What?! Their daughters want to look sexy? Their sons admire gangster rappers?I have to say, I'm not much impressed with the youth culture of America that these Egyptians, especially the privileged, are taking on. What I don't like is that rap culture, at it's most shallow, gives the appearance of rebellion without really providing any sort of social criticism. Of course there is great American rap, but it's not usually on the radio or TV. On the other hand, the kids who spoke up in this piece about fashion were quite articulate. They knew the code, and they knew very well the message they were sending. I really admire that.The article ended with some college professor saying that "Freedom" couldn't mean the same thing in Egypt because here people have to uphold "traditional Eastern values." I wonder if China is involved somehow in these so-called "Eastern values." Two main problems here: (1) traditional western values don't teach us to wear provocative clothing (anyone remember the bonnet?), and (2) "traditional Eastern values" have fluctuated wildly over the course of the last few centuries and the last few decades.. Of course, what this professor, and the parents in the article, meant by "traditional Eastern values" is obedience to authority. I can't imagine anyone in their right mind calling blind obedience "Freedom." I mean, this is the kind of crap my country's government says!In the end, I was proud of my contribution to the article. The editor did not approve. Mr. Ramadan, chief editor of the Gazette, had a few minor problems with my composition. Okay, no problem, I still think he was wrong, but I was more than happy to make the changes. Then he told me to lie. I asked him three times just to make sure.At issue was a particular line which read: "some girls wear pants so tight that they have to put on a bikini underneath just to hide their lady parts when they sit down." He objected to the word "bikini," saying that it must mean shorts. I offered to show him the Arabic original which clearly stated "maillohat" which is a word borrowed from French to mean "bikini" or "bathing suit." He insisted. I told him that I wasn't going to distort some poor young lady's statement. I told him that he had no integrity or regard for the truth. Then I told him to go to hell.His paper is notoriously conservative, a real tool of the government. He was going to lie so that he could avoid embarrassment, and so that he wouldn't embarrass Egypt. It's that very embarrassment about sex, and the inability to discuss sex frankly in the media, that maintains ignorance and conservatism. Let me make myself clear: I don't care how Egyptians dress. I just think that their attitudes should be fairly portrayed in the media.. I wasn't about to sell my soul for some flatulent and ignorant civil servant masquerading as a journalist, dear Mister Ramadan.This happens just on the heals of a survey conducted by Dr. Aliyaa Shoukry regarding sexual harassment.The study found: * 31.9% of women who reported sexual harassment were dressed like figure 1, wearing a blouse, long skirt and veil. 21.0% of women were wearing a longer blouse, pants, and veil like figure 3. Figure 4 was third, where women were wearing a cloak and veil (20 %), then figure 6 (19.6%). These results disprove the belief that sexual harassment is linked to the way women dress (women are sexually harassed when dressed "indecently" or are not veiled - in the words of some participants), since 72.5% of victims surveyed were veiled. *This confirms that the stereotypical ideas of a patriarchal culture that blames women even if they are victims, is opposite to reality.As it turns out, the problem isn't with women showing off their beauty.. The problem is that men are insecure and feel threatened by the beauty of a woman.One more word before I finish. No doubt the Egyptian government will crack down on sexual harassment, especially against foreigners. Egypt is protective of it's tourism dollars.But the real problem is that people in this country have very little space, almost none at all, for men and women to meet as equals. The veil is just a cover story. What's at stake is the place of women in this society, in this world. Until men and women are equal, sex will continue to be taboo, unsatisfactory, violent and patriarchal.LoveMy aunt has an inoperable brain tumor. It is hard to accept her diagnosis because she does not look, nor behave as if she is ill. I know it is selfish to want a loved one to stay amongst us longer than they are supposed to, yet I want her to fight. I want her to call upon all of our ancestors, all that is good, all that is love in this universe seen and unseen and grow old with us. I am a firm believer in positive thinking, I know that it works. Despite that, I don't want to know how to face a loved ones mortality and continue to smile. She is a mother to this motherless child, my friend, and a safe quiet place for me. I don't want to have this internal dialogue, I don't want to miss her, but mostly I don't want to know the awkwardness of her not being here. My heart is broken, and I am filled with guilt. Sad for all the wasted moments that equate to years of taking her presence in my life for granted. Embarrassed about all the family events that I missed because of the selfishness of youth. Yet here I go across the world, someone please tell me how do I leave with grace? RecentlyMy departure date has changed to late November, from mid September. I am taking this added time to catch my breath, and maybe get somesleep (I know that's a hopeless wish).
I am leaving Bee in long term storage. I am not going to change my mind again! I've spoken to a few people who have lived in Japan and they all say the same thing....the roads are too narrow to bring a US vehicle. No I am not going to sell her either, she's still practically brand new.
Oh, if it were that easy to commit to a decision about the house. I've already contracted with a property management company. I am not yet comfortable with the thought of someone else living in my home. As a Virgo I don't think I will ever be comfortable with the decision. I am irrationally contemplating leaving the house vacant and retaining the upkeep contract with the property management company. The figures don't lie, I know it's foolhardy and financially inept to leave my home vacant but the numbers still do not bring me comfort
Terrible Idol Leroy Wells - Can you dig it?This is utter foolishness! Can you dig Adderall XR?
YouTube - Terrible Idol Auditions #9-Leroy Wells - Can you dig it? May 08 MonotheismI have always stayed out of religious talk at work. I know religion is a topic that is more divisive than politics. After all these years I had to go and open my mouth.
I was asked if I am willing to go to hell for my beliefs. My answer was yes, not because I am certain that I am right, but I am certain that the institution of religion is not for me. Don't get me wrong I believe in something greater and wiser than all, but I am not religious. Religion, as far as I am concerned is man made, I think it selfish for any group of people to believe they have a monopoly on God and His favor. I believe my mind to small to comprehend it all, but not small enough to believe in hell. Why would I leave perfection (heaven), to maybe make it back. What's worse, if I don't make it back I never will. April 16 GrowthI have been taking part in the Oprah and Eckhart Tolle live web class on Mondays. I am going through another life purge, this one is more poignant. I say poignant because I have released some friends from my life. Like all social introverts I feel the loss deeply, at moments like this I feel torn. My mother always told me during adolescence to choose my friends wisely. Your friends should be on the same level as you trying to get to where you are going. At what point do you say I have outgrown you, is it selfish to move on?
I feel as if I have jumped ship. Is there such a thing as bailing out of a friendship? To be honest I couldn't take the constant train wrecks. I am not saying that I expect drama free friendships, heck I am a work in progress, but I will not stand for self sabotage. I know that you cannot walk another persons journey. When needed, we all get help sometimes but accepting the help is another issue. I got tired of being the punching bag. I wouldn't accept that type of behaviour from a stranger. To my ownself be true.
I stand in the gap for my pts with the understanding that I will only do so until they can do better. I can only help those who want to be helped. In the interim another's madness is just that, theirmadness. March 28 A New EarthSo , I have been taking part in the New Earth webcast's every Monday night on Oprah.com. Bear with me ,I like to let spiritual things slowly digest before assimilating the teachings into my everyday life. This book is like the perfect desert, I know I would not get it if I had not read the previous books.
I do not believe in serendipity nor coincidence, this was Divine timing. I have been offering people free copies....I sound like a newly saved person that impedes and exhausts you about forming a personal relationship with Jesus, and saving your soul from an eternity of damnation. I am filled with awe at how many people have evolved past religion to spirituality just as I have. I am filled with wonderment at how connected all souls are. I am feeling grounded again, as if my spirit guide has returned (I had felt as if I had lost my way). Only this is surer, more profound. I feel small but yet still part of a whole. Collete used to tell me to walk barefooted outside so that I could release and obtain energy, that's how it feels only my connection is vast.
I finally snapped out of offering the book this Wednesday. I caught myself offering it again, and an old memory surfaced. I used to share with people a synopsis of my current lesson, and tell them to seek it out when and if they ever become ready. This way a seed is planted, if it takes root great if not great. I had to learn once again to respect the holiness of another's journey. Just Virgo peeking her head in again! March 09 Scared, ExcitedIt's official, well as official as anything governmental can be, I am going to Japan. It dawned on me at 3am today that I have to quick in a hurry decide what to do with the house. I am a tad bit OCDish, and cringe at the thought of people occupying my space. My next door neighbor left his house unoccupied for two years during military deployment. It's been rented out for the last year or so, his property management company does the minimum. Being a Virgo, and slightly OCDish is not a good combo. Spiritually I know that everything always works out for my betterment, but I still sweat the small stuff.
I was told not to take a vehicle because parking spaces are very tight, basically New York parking. I learned to drive in New York, there is no way that I am taking Bee (yes she is named). What to do with her though? Apparently there are a lot of used vehicles that cannot be exported to the States are for sale at great prices. I've checked out a few websites and the prices are cheap, purchasing a vehicle will be on the bottom of my list though. The train system from what I've been told takes you everywhere.
I started my immunization series for Japan Wednesday past, ouch! I have two physicals due by the end of April, and four more shots .....yippy
I changed my mind and have decided to take Bee with me....I don't want to leave her in storage for three years. I have had so many ideas about what I will do with the house. I think my biggest OCDish apprehension has to do with the thought of other people living on my carpet...I really don't sit on my chair's. I saw an advert offering $900.00 whole house carpet and padding supposedly a sale so that is an option upon return. Naw, I might go with cork and wood who knows, because right about now I don't. |
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