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July 05 Growing Into Our NamesMy girlfriend believes that we all grow into our names. She feels strongly about contemplating the name of a child. Give thanks to all who impart wisdom into your life. I have recently been struck with curiosity about the meaning of my name. I have more so in the past been driven about the sign I was born under. I am sixty percent Virgo. I am one hundred percent butterfly. I was in high school when I was struck with the realization that I was a transient soul. The appeal of traveling was quite strong, even at that young age. I can recall wanting to work for the U.N. at seventeen. I intrinsically new that it would afford me a mobile life. Here I sit in my apartment in Japan thankfully inhaling the ocean air . The feeling of deja vu strikes me, and the seventeen year old girl in me smiles. The surety of that child strikes me with wonderment. Oh, there is room for the expansion of awareness, life would be so boring if this is it. I am still excited about what I will feel like in ten years. At times I feel like wearing a shirt that says Pardon this human, growth in process. I am grateful that I can acknowledge that I am seldom as awkward in this skin as I sometimes feel. It's already okay.... my catchphrase for my inner circle. It has been so before this butterfly decided. Thankfully all is just so. Today, I am thankful for hindsight. Can you appreciate how much you have grown into the person you somehow knew you would be? August 14 RecentlyMy departure date has changed to late November, from mid September. I am taking this added time to catch my breath, and maybe get somesleep (I know that's a hopeless wish).
I am leaving Bee in long term storage. I am not going to change my mind again! I've spoken to a few people who have lived in Japan and they all say the same thing....the roads are too narrow to bring a US vehicle. No I am not going to sell her either, she's still practically brand new.
Oh, if it were that easy to commit to a decision about the house. I've already contracted with a property management company. I am not yet comfortable with the thought of someone else living in my home. As a Virgo I don't think I will ever be comfortable with the decision. I am irrationally contemplating leaving the house vacant and retaining the upkeep contract with the property management company. The figures don't lie, I know it's foolhardy and financially inept to leave my home vacant but the numbers still do not bring me comfort
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