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February 23 NEW EXPRESSIONS OF OURSELVES
It's after two am, it just dawned on me that I am still struggling with insomnia. Granted, I am sleeping better, and feeling better. I forgot to tell you that I am now sporting a new hair do. I know that's nothing new, what I mean is, I now have about a quarter of an inch of hair on my head. I love it, I feel free, no longer enslaved to primping. I gave myself the gift of time, an additional thirty minutes a day. I have gone through another spiritual shift. A new age of self realization, this shift is more personal, intimate. I didn't fight it this time. I am living patiently with this new me. Knowing that by consciously embracing this new me, my lessons will be easier to experience. Here's to new expressions of ourselves, and the beauty of grace to embrace these expressions with a joyful heart. February 16 ThankfulI am thankful for this day, and all the lessons it will afford me. I am thankful that you found this blog. I am thankful for all the vessels in my life and I hope that this statement of gratitude benefits you. I am thankful for all the smiling strangers that my creator sends my way. I will pay it forward with grace.
Peace is always with you.
February 10 TravelI love Japan! Please travel, I don't care if you take a two hour drive, just travel. I promise it does the soul good. I am not saying that I couldn't complain, but why should I. Really, I am gainfully employed with health care and a roof over my head. Please, if you can spare the extra gas, take that drive, book that flight.... 2008 proved that all does change. People that you know will not be here tomorrow, things that seem of great import today will not matter that much, so please see something different and appreciate it. On Sunday's I would pack a lunch and drive an hour or two in one direction and see the sights. I am not saying that the sights would be to my liking, but it was something different. I made a habit of learning about that town via Google when I returned home. I ended up with two to three co-workers joining me frequently, most of the time we would sit in Bee's trunk quietly enjoying lunch. Those moment's are priceless, so don't tell me you don't have the funds! I am thankful for; my eyes, they allow me to take in the view. My mother, that woman did not play when it came to schooling, and travel. Schooling affords me my current lifestyle. What are you thankful for? Ain't been a good friend.I ain't been a good friend to y'all! I've been selfish in not sharing all the goings ons, as Bernie Mac, would have said. Did you notice the hyphenated name.. huh, huh huh?
Yeah, it's 'bout time. What has changed, you ask? Me, now you know it is always about me. Do I have to school you about my views? It's always about me, or you in your case... the buck always starts and stops here. Simply, what I thought were his short comings were mine.... ha ha! We always think it's about the other person, but no, it's about you and the lesson you should be learning at that moment. So what have I learned?
I have learned that it's okay to be soft.... naw, it's okay for me to need and want this man. Yes, I need this man, and it's my right to answer to him. After all, someone has to hold me accountable. Let's get it straight, there are things that I still can't stand about him, and you bet he's voiced his pains, but isn't that what it's about. Like I said someone has got to hold me accountable. So, with that in mind, he is my soulmate, my mirror, and I am thankful that he held on this long.
Here's to this new chapter in my life and yours, may we navigate it with grace!
Peace is always with you, |
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